I dont know whats going on

Its been a year almost since i remember feeling the right side of my body for the first time.. I was standing in my room at the old sagewood house where i lived with greg and darren. It was night time i think or at least dark outside.. i remember standing there feeling as if the right side of my mind and body had just woken up for the first time.

I had never felt more alive..

Seeing life once again,

for the first time again,

at the late age of 22.

I stretched out my hand and looked at it for a while,

then began to actually touch, and feel once again,

just thinking to myself, oh god what i have missed out on,

for such a long time.

How could this have happened to me? What had happened to me? And why did I wake up then, there, that night. Man wtf.. how could the whole right side of me be asleep without me knowing for so long. I had been trying to get in tune with myself and my body for a bit before this incident so maybe that triggered it.. i really dont care what triggered it, im just thankful it did.

I had started using my left arm more often, trying to do as my right arm had done before for such a long time, maybe a reflex or an instinct.. point is why should my right arm do things my left arm cant, is this not my body? Shouldnt I be able to learn and teach both arms to perform equally? be able to stretch every finger individually and move them as I want?

I started writing with my left hand, sloppily and slowly, writing down my thoughts or writing down lyrics of songs, whatever came to my mind at the time, pretty good stuff imo ha.

I believe that as you begin to master your body, your mind grows stronger, your body begins to run more efficiently, you sort of evolve.. if u can call it that..